This is my testimony, from death to life

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This is my testimony
From death to life


Guys, today I'm making the below declaration, this step of faith, this sea change in my mentality, and ask you to support me in prayer and remind me of this and hold me accountable to this!

As mentioned elsewhere, I've applied to join the below program at the church I've joined over the last few months, Trent Vineyard - starting as an occasional visitor to gradually becoming a regular (was torn between committing here 10 miles from home when there is a great local small church here in the village I've been part of for over 2 years).

https://trentvineyard.org/rooted

'Rooted is a year of discipleship, ministry and growth for anyone in Trent Vineyard aged mid 30s and beyond. It involves giving a day a week to learning, serving and growing in relationship with God.'

This is a big step change for me - since I first realised I was suffering from neurodegenerative brain injury/CTE (Chronic Traumatic Encephalytis, medicalese for too many bangs to the head) in 2021, my first response was shock and a complete breakdown which cost me my marriage and family home, my career etc, and 2 years of my life in acute then psychiatric rehab having lost my faith, which God restored and got me out of 2.5 years ago.  

Despite a subsequent season of travelling, and a determination to 'go out in a blaze of glory', as well as the positive step of investing my cash pot in that christian retreat centre project that I hoped to be involved with as a resident worship pastor, which has folded meaning I lost my cash pot/pension etc - otherwise in general I just resigned myself to the 'fact' that this condition is going to degenerate and my life will soon be over sort of mindset - I'm not going to live a long life. Normally those with this condition end up as zombies and then die prematurely - the average life expectancy is 60-69, I'm 57 - many top rugby players have succumbed to early onset dementia/MND/suicide in their 40's/50's, suicide being the number one cause of death, and I've been close at times due to sometimes unbearable head pain...  

But this being inevitable IS A LIE OF THE ENEMY!!!  

This ministry and the daily prayer meetings have been something that I've come to live for - the reality is I have plenty to live for - I have 3 children and one day God willing will have grandchildren that I want to live to see - and it's my CHOICE to live, to fight, to believe in and testify to the finished work of salvation and healing that Christ has done, to contend and not just resign myself to a lie of the enemy!

Jesus bore this and every health condition in his own body on the cross - it's my choice to live in that finished work, agree with it, confess *'I shall not die but live to declare the word of the Lord'* etc etc!  

So please pray that I'll be accepted on this one day a week program - I've also thought of volunteering at my local library, my local charity shop, and getting out doing street evangelism, but to do that I need to overcome this passivity and inactivity that I've succumbed to for the past 5 years, which has meant my physical and mental fitness has gone down hill. Earlier this year I committed to walking round the village daily, a mere 30 minutes walk - which I managed 3 days in a row then allowed to lapse...! Physical exercise is an important way to combat CTE!

Fundamentally, I'm choosing to shake off the passive mindset I've had of just sitting in an arm chair for most of the day most days, succumbing to a serious health diagnosis and 'waiting to die'... NO!! I CHOOSE TO LIVE!! To get up, and DO - the Lord's will - which is for me to live for his glory, and not die, whatever the enemy has tried to take me out with!!!

I look forward to having a glorious testimony of overcoming against the odds, and living a long happy fruitful life, defying medical expecations, to the glory of God!!!

Psalms 91:9-11, 14-16 NKJV
[9] Because you have made the Lord, who is my refuge, Even the Most High, your dwelling place, [10] No evil shall befall you, *Nor shall any plague come near your dwelling;* ...
[14] “Because he has set his love upon Me, therefore I will deliver him; I will set him on high, because he has known My name...[16] *With long life I will satisfy him, And show him My salvation.”*
Hebrews 10:5-7 NLT
[5] That is why, when Christ came into the world, he said to God, “You did not want animal sacrifices or sin offerings. *But you have given me a body to offer.* [6] You were not pleased with burnt offerings or other offerings for sin. [7] *Then I said, ‘Look, I have come to do your will, O God*— as is written about me in the Scriptures.’”
Psalms 118:17-23 NKJV
[17] *I shall not die, but live, And declare the works of the Lord.* [18] *The Lord has chastened me severely, But He has not given me over to death.*... [22] *The stone which the builders(doctors!) rejected Has become the chief cornerstone*. [23] This was the Lord’s doing; It is marvelous in our eyes.

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