Confessions of a former womanising child of hell

I've pretty much given up hope of finding a wife, and thanks to the men's ministry I'm part of and the healing and deliverance I experienced last weekend, where I wept so much my nose bled, I feel so much stronger in old areas of temptation - temptations still come, but I find joy now in saying 'no!' and being able to stand.
I think before I felt a sense of entitlement to a woman - I'd been married for 19 years, together for 15, and I'd been a good husband/father/family man. I felt I didn't deserve what had happened to me. I threw God's promises at him 'you say in your word it's not good for man to be alone, where's my woman?!'
I felt I had an excuse for womanising and fooling around, defiling myself and punishing other women for my pain, taking it out on them, revenging myself by hurting/using them, what terrible self righteous evil behaviour. I just wrote a song 'child of hell'... that's how I was!!!

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